Two valium later

I feel less like a squid in a human suit.  Or an octopus in a girl body.  I found this image on a very cool site, with what I think is a very original idea,  bioephemera.

It's by Dave Rau.  Anyway, now I have a new site to covet and envy.  It has got some of the best images ever, I think M will love it.

Plans for the weekend

What I will be doing and what it will cost me;

• Fix the sink(free!)
• Fix the cabinet(free!)
• Apply for a second job...(my soul!)
• Revamp blog (free!)
• Try to figure out what it is that is taking up so much space on my computer (my sanity!)
• Staring contest with rabbit (my dignity!)
• BTW I like the definition of "stare"on my Apple dictionary; "look fixedly or vacantly (emphasis added) at someone or something with one's eyes wide open" 
  
• Clean house, dirty house, clean house, dirty house, repeat, repeat, repeat... (free!)

 

I don't exactly approve of the of the Die Bunny  objective, but it is  Junko Mizuno's first game....

Super high anxiety

It may be due to a big breakthrough during this week's therapy session.  It's made be feel a bit adrift.  No not a adrift because I don't feel like I'm in the middle of the ocean.  No, the ocean is full of life, can physically move you, it's creepy.  I feel like I'm in a anaerobic desert.

I feel like I've slipped back into my old skin, which never felt like it fit right in the first place.  This has actually affects my physical movement, it makes my step slow and hesitant, it makes my arms feel like they're too long and hang of my sides at funny angle.  My legs don't bend right,  the heel-toe method of walking is messed up.

Ugh.  Thank heaven for valium...

As promised...

a post with just words.  I can see why people mostly post pictures instead of typing anything, its way easier and looks cool.  But putting up images without substance is lazy, as opposed to writing without substance, which does force me to think about how to fill space...
Anyway, what's on my mind today?  Insomnia, it's back, in a big way.  I have to take pills to sleep, and even then they have very little effect.  I thought I should go with that nap plan I've been thinking about for years.  Fuck a regular bedtime, or 6 hours of continuous sleep, I'll just take naps.  It the sleep equivalent of snacking throughout the day.  I sleep so peacefully when I nap, I don't toss and turn, I don't worry, I don't lie there waiting for exhaustion to over take me.  I just just close my eyes and drift off.  My theory on this is because I resting when I actually feel tried and I don't feel the pressure of having to go to sleep or otherwise the next day will be fucked up.  Oh my god, sleeping has more pressure than I can deal with!  What a life of luxury I live...

I've found the gang I want to join

I think this is some involved in the initiation( and yes, I know it's by Jamie Hewlett and not Japanese, but it's still really cool, just like the Black Tight Killers)

I also know that it's incredible lazy to keep posting pics, but I swear I'll write something really cool the second I get a chance.