Super high anxiety

It may be due to a big breakthrough during this week's therapy session.  It's made be feel a bit adrift.  No not a adrift because I don't feel like I'm in the middle of the ocean.  No, the ocean is full of life, can physically move you, it's creepy.  I feel like I'm in a anaerobic desert.

I feel like I've slipped back into my old skin, which never felt like it fit right in the first place.  This has actually affects my physical movement, it makes my step slow and hesitant, it makes my arms feel like they're too long and hang of my sides at funny angle.  My legs don't bend right,  the heel-toe method of walking is messed up.

Ugh.  Thank heaven for valium...