As promised...

a post with just words.  I can see why people mostly post pictures instead of typing anything, its way easier and looks cool.  But putting up images without substance is lazy, as opposed to writing without substance, which does force me to think about how to fill space...
Anyway, what's on my mind today?  Insomnia, it's back, in a big way.  I have to take pills to sleep, and even then they have very little effect.  I thought I should go with that nap plan I've been thinking about for years.  Fuck a regular bedtime, or 6 hours of continuous sleep, I'll just take naps.  It the sleep equivalent of snacking throughout the day.  I sleep so peacefully when I nap, I don't toss and turn, I don't worry, I don't lie there waiting for exhaustion to over take me.  I just just close my eyes and drift off.  My theory on this is because I resting when I actually feel tried and I don't feel the pressure of having to go to sleep or otherwise the next day will be fucked up.  Oh my god, sleeping has more pressure than I can deal with!  What a life of luxury I live...

M starts grad school today

I'm so excited for her, I can't wait to hear first hand wait a Cal State grad program is like from someone who went to UCLA and only took difficult classes from very demanding professors.  I'm hoping that'll be a cakewalk(she'll be working full time well attending, that's the beauty of the Cal State system).  She keeps bemoaning the fact that she didn't try to apply with USC (she felt she wasn't good enough, but feels differently now...) but she can go there for her Ph.D.  Personally I think being a full time grad student and a full time worker bee are a very impressive accomplishment.
The downside is that I won't see her until after 10PM on Thursdays, but I'll just dedicate myself to my passion for napping during that time.  Oh, and I'll clean and make dinner, so she won't freak the fuck out with her new hectic schedule.

"No time to fall behind!"

This is what they tell transfer students, or at least those that transfer from a semester to a quarter system. They tell you that, "You'll be so busy trying to complete the most basic work that you won't even have enough time to slack off." I'd just like to say that's not true, there is always time to slack off, if you're willing to prioritize it. There are always naps, internet "research" projects, music, idle chit chat, and hair to dye. Thinking back to my college days I take pride in my ability to successfully transfer from a community college semester system to a university quarter system, and manage to screw around just as much as I ever did, if not more so, and actually raise my GPA in the process. To those who didn't have time for mid-afternoon naps I say, "You should have tried harder!"

Also, the work is not that fucking hard*, there will always be one easy class per quarter that won't require much effort. And once you stop caring, it only gets easier.

*I say this only as a humanities major.

Sooo sleepy

I'm already looking forward to my afternoon nap. One of the highlights of my Xmas vacation was sleeping in, napping and going to bed fairly early. I suppose sleep isn't the worst thing to be addicted to, but its getting old. Some combination of medication and stress has zapped my energy. Maybe it's because I haven't exercised in the past 6 month, I've been too sleepy to leave the house after work. Maybe I should take my vitamins, too. All I know is that coffee seems to have the ability to sooth me to sleep like warm milk. I don't really mean that, I think milk, especially warm milk, tastes gross, so its more of a wake-up than black coffee. Why do I love bitter ( I also love sour drinks) tasting things?

I took three naps yesterday!

That's a new record for me. I took one during my lunch break(20 min.s), on the drive home from the doctor (1 hour), I was the passenger, and when I got home(2 1/2 hours). I was even in bed by 12:30AM. I suffer from really bad menstrual fatigue. Well I don't really suffer per se, I enjoy napping and for once it justifiable. It kinda feels like when you take nighttime cold med.s in the day, while you're at work, and you find your eyelids dropping, head titled forward, and warm drool trickling from your slack jaw. It's kinda peaceful, what I hope euthanasia feels like, warm and cozy.

How could it be that it's not even noon yet?!

2 minutes till, I swear time is teasing me, it does it on me on purpose. I finally have some thing to contribute to the TOE(Theory of Everything), and that is; time's a real dick.

Anyway, I'm really looking forward to my early afternoon nap. That's right I nap at work. There's a couch in one the rooms and a door that locks. Yes, I am willing to skip lunch in order to rest my weary head. A girl can only take so database, IT, and editing before needing to entertain her self with violent daydreams (thanks to Sci-Fi channel's old Saturday Anime line-up, on at 5AM-Robot Circus, Project A-Ko, Akira and bits of stuff that I only remember in nightmares).

Anyway, there's a lock on the door to that room, it's really dark and that sofa's like sleeping on a marshmallow. Way better than food. Okay, maybe not, but I can eat at my desk, I can't nap at it.