Anger repression breakfast

1 Gross (taste, not amount) smoothie, of which I will be lucky if I drink half of it
1 valium
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Even though I got a maybe, a we'll see, I'm still pissed.  And now the pressure is fucking on.  Now I have to really prove that I am administering this network,  although so much of maintenance is mundane.
I've already begun looking for other jobs, following my dad's advice of applying, letting certain talkative co-workers become aware of this fact, and hopefully being offered another job.
M's pushing the lawsuit route.  I'm prepping.